i just wanted to post a little something to let all of you know how thankful dustyn and i are that we were able to spend time with you during our Christmas trip back to texas. we had a *fantastic* time seeing everyone and catching up. thank you for taking the time to stop whatever you had going on to welcome us into your homes, grab coffee, go shopping, whatever it was that we did... THANK YOU.
it's been extremely hard for me to be back at work. i knew it would be, but i feel like my mind is blowing things out of proportion today and i keep thinking, "why am i back?" it's weird how these thoughts didn't exist before we left, but now, it seems like my heart is a little emptier, a little heavier (and my body too, thanks to all the delicious food we ate). i cried multiple times on the plane ride over... and no, not just because i was reading the twilight book. i miss you guys.
i don't know how the feeling of leaving, of missing you, of wanting you around continuously, could ever go away. i just think that you need to know how special you are to dustyn and i.
immediately when i got to work this morning, i was thrown on something that was completely unexpected, and broken... and i was told to FIX it. immediately. i have a problem with people not owning up to when they do things wrong, and that is [still] happening today... mind you with a bunch of older ADULTS that i'm supposed to respect. the problem keeps arising as someone (or two people, in particular) continue to go in and out of our drawing files, and "surprisingly" the problem arises again. i don't know how to make the situation better without personally fixing it again every time it happens because i'm no computer genius, but...
on top of just really missing texas and *home*...i wonder if this is worth it. i love my job and the people, for the most part, are incredible, but it's blatantly obvious that texas and california are two different places. as are the people. two different mind frames and goals in life.
we'll see what happens, but as for now, i'm struggling. i really wish i had accrued more time off because i would probably leave work and go home for the day (or take off these few days before the new year). so much for being the newbie.
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aww, i'm sorry it's been so rough to transition back to california and work. :( it was so great to get to see you while you were here! love you bunches!
It was so fun to have you guys here- I hope that things get better at work and that this holiday weekend will help you get back into the swing of things. Counting down the days until June...
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