ridiculously short update

i'm kind of down and out today. things are happening and going on that i just don't understand. i think everything is revolving around this economy and it's making me go mad.

i haven't updated since the last time, but here's what has happened since. FIVE people were let go from Gensler in my office last thursday. there was a firmwide "firing day"... almost all offices have let go of people. we are now down to 15 in my office - when i started we were at 25. i would have to say she's one of my best friends here... nicole... was let go. stephen, whom i loved and adored, was also let go. difficult nancy, whom i was just beginning to connect with, was let go. julia, who was a part time worker is gone. marc is the last of the five... he started just one week before i did.

nicole couldn't be happier - she was thinking about asking for a transfer or completely switching industries anyway. oddly enough, my cheating boss referred nicole for a job at carrier johnson, where his secret lover is the head designer. she's giving nicole a good word to her bosses and hopefully they'll bring nicole on as a contract worker.

it's quite difficult for me to think of nicole in terms of another firm. she's my friend. she's my buddy. not my competition. i was discussing this with misty and she said, "magan, it's not like that. it's about survival right now." that helped to put things in perspective, but it's hard to not have the office feel empty or quiet.

we're so spread out in the office that it's tormenting. they're actually considering renting out our office space (some of it) to another company of 8 people. how odd is that? working with another company inside my own office? weird!

the new principal is awesome. everyone seems to be targeting jeff these days. stacy and debbie both had conversations with kevin, the new principal, about things jeff has said and done lately that are not ok. kelley said kevin called her yesterday to ask her about something as well. i think they're trying to boot jeff out. can't say i'd be sad. he's costing this company a lot of money and is trying to get away with a lot of bad things under the table. his alliance is no longer with gensler...

especially when he's at a "conference" on PTO right now... sharing a hotel room with viveca...from carrier johnson.

here's something that has me extremely bothered. i was assigned for 80 hour weeks before the layoffs. they're giving away my work to other people in the office. claudia is sabotaging my time to get me off my projects... to work on small projects like an elevator cab or the "YOU ARE HERE" signs that are put up in buildings. i mean, it's a slap in the face to me. i helped do the test fits that won the jobs that i was going to be working on. now, i'm no longer allowed to work on them because i have stinkin' signs that she needs done?

she's putting off her duties, the crap work, on me. i'm not her personal slave. she declared for her "new years resolution" that she would work less. she TOLD, not discussed or asked, jeff and scott that her new hours of operation are from 7-4 every day. they told her that's not okay... but she's sticking to it anyway, and i'm feeling the brunt of the work she's refusing to do because she's not here.

i don't know what to do about her. what do i say? do i say anything to anyone and potentially risk losing my job? i think i might lose my mind first.

other news....

i've been reading a lot. i'm 20 pages away from being done with breaking dawn, the fourth twilight book. i've found this book to be quite frustrating and sometimes, i've laughed out loud because of the ridiculousness of the author's decisions. however, i'm still extremely attached to the characters. i'll be sad to not have quiet time with bella and edward anymore. jacob is another story though. his character drives me somewhat insane.

fun news...

i joined a boxing club with misty. it's bootcamp, in boxing gloves. no kidding. we really wear boxing gloves and wraps and learn how to really kick, punch, etc. on punching bags. if i wanted to, i could take classes and learn how to fight real people, but right now, the punching bag kicks my butt.

dustyn went to a class last night and enjoyed it. he was shocked that this is what i'm into right now. i guess i'm just tired of allowing myself to slip back into bad habits. i'm not one for repetition, so i have to keep things alive by changing the routine... boxing seemed like the best route for now. maybe one day i'll decide to prepare for a marathon.

my eyes...

here's a fun story. i went to the eye doctor a couple of weeks ago. i found out i'm nearsighted in my left eye and farsighted in my right eye. how's that for odd? you guys have always told me i'm weird... this just proves it. dustyn couldn't help but burst out laughing when i explained why i had to get new glasses. oh boy.

i apologize or the randomness of the post, but just taking the time to write has allowed me to relax a little. i'm so upset about work right now. it's hard to love something and be disappointed in it. i am just at a crossroad and don't know what to do. advice?