i'll start with the easy story first. i got chewed out by jeff today. i was in the middle of a conversation with him, discussing finishes for a project that he's working on. he does a complete 360 and decides to start yelling at me about how i should have gone directly to him FIRST before speaking with anyone else about leaving G-SD. i was pretty flabbergasted. i haven't directly spoken to anyone but kevin and kelley about leaving; everyone else has "heard through the grapevine" and approached me.
jeff was even so tactless as to tell a rep on tuesday when i was out sick that "it wasn't worth getting my business card because i'll just be gone anyway in a couple of weeks". for now, my responsibility is to meet with all vendors and reps... just because i'm leaving doesn't mean i've given up on my responsibilities. in fact, i haven't started telling the reps yet. they tend to freak out about change and it's not happening in two weeks, so i think i have time.
in response to jeff's outburst today, i said, "jeff, i apologize, but i had a one on one conversation with kevin. i haven't broadcasted this among the office." he didn't accept my apology; he continued to speak and belittle me like i was a child who'd committed a huge crime. how's that for politics and power play? think someone's a little jealous he's not being treated as the respected, head, go-to person anymore?
i'm not certain that kevin is the most appropriate person i should have gone to. however, he is the highest ranking person in our office; the situation gets tricky when you think about how kevin is only here three days a week, but jeff is here all the time. am i wrong? i don't entirely think so, but there's a shred of possibility.
on to the bigger issue.
here are the things i've had wrong with me over the last couple of weeks (sorry if you don't want to know this, but how am i going to explain the rest?):
1. urinary tract infection. this came out of the blue. i haven't had one in years and it took me off guard.
2. vomiting and such earlier this week.
3. blood in my urine last night.
4. extremely high fevers that have outlasted the vomiting, etc.
5. --not as recent, but i started having kidney/back pains on our flight to see brian and kristin in february, but disregarded it because things are always a little hokey on planes.
it hit me last night after #3 happened that all of these are signs for a kidney stone. there are maybe 7 or so symptoms, but these are definitely big issues. my back has definitely been hurting in odd places, but i again reasoned that this was because i'd been sleeping so much that my body was sore from laying down.
this morning, dustyn and i woke up early to call doctors ... because of course i don't have a urology doctor in california... and of course we're leaving here in a month and a half... and of course money is a little tighter than normal... to schedule an appointment. most places were rude and not scheduling appointments until 9:15. when i got to work, i had to spend time calling offices to see when they could schedule the appt. the earliest i got was next thursday. the others all wanted every page of my medical history, a referral...etc., etc., etc.
dustyn wants this taken care of so immediately because emergency room fees are ridiculously high here... we could expect to pay around $6000 with insurance. he said he would rather i contact my old doctor in austin, see if he has an opening and fly me back to get x-rays, etc. i called the doctor and his nurse was treating me like i was the stupidest person to walk the face of the earth.
yes, i'm aware that i should have made an appointment for a check up with a new doctor in CA. got that.
however, right now, i have an issue. i know the symptoms. i know how this feels. treat me! they do have an appointment open early in the week next week... but guess what?
IT'S EASTER WEEKEND and plane tickets are $500 minimum per person. yep, so just to go back home, it'd be $1000. either way, we're screwed. her advice was to go to the emergency room should pain occur. i'm very aware of the process.
right now, i'm in no immediate pain. i'm only wishing i didn't flush or discard my entire stash of vicodin when we moved from texas to here. i think the hardest thing is to not think about it because every time the symptoms become obvious to me, it's within days that the pain really starts to hit full force.
i mean, really. could my timing be any worse?
please pray that things will work out. that i can make it until next thursday for the appointment that was available. pray the doctor isn't crazy. pray there's no emergency room trip.
especially this weekend... kim's coming to visit saturday and sunday.
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