run. run. run.

Lately, their hardly seems to be a down moment to sit, relax, and read a book. My days are crazy and my schedule is never the same. I LOVE what I'm doing, but at the same time, there's such a steep learning curve for me to figure everything out right now to get the business up and going. It's sometimes a little overwhelming. I'm also learning that maybe I can be a little too independent when it comes to things I want done a specific way. I should certainly be praying about this because my need to do things all on my own isn't good for Dustyn and I. Dustyn desperately wants to help me succeed, but I have been getting too caught up in, "I can do this on my own" and sometimes I really hurt his feelings.

I need to realize that my weaknesses are some of his strengths. He likes budgeting, crunching, and tracking numbers in programs. I don't. He knows how to make and build websites. I don't. He knows some of the best websites to get deals on equipment. I don't.

I really need to lay this all out there and quit being so stubborn. It is overwhelming to me to try to control everything. I have been working at least 10-12 hour days every day. Part of the problem is that Dustyn already works a full time job so I don't want to ask him to do more work for me when he comes home. And I want to prove to him that I can do this. I am determined.

In other news, I'm very excited to say that I did a three mile course outside this morning. My average mile was 10:58. Usually I run around a 12 minute mile, which by running standards, isn't very fast (5 miles/hour). Somehow today, I just felt revived. My legs weren't hurting - the shin splints did not come out to play today. It was overcast and slightly breezy, and I just felt alive.

Yesterday, iTunes and I had a rendezvous (yes, Les, I used rendezvous). I have been creating a list of artists and songs to download for quite some time. I never get around to it. I always forget or put it off for something more important. Lately, however, my Pandora has just not been working for me. I opened iTunes and went a little crazy before my run yesterday morning.

While I was running, this one song started playing ("The Summer Ends" by American Football). It has a beautiful acoustic guitar and trumpet (I think) entry. The intro is pretty long. I was nearing the end of my run and I realized that when this started playing, I started praying. It was a beautiful moment. I prayed for my friends. For my family. For my health. So many things were on my mind and God just allowed me to have this beautiful moment with Him. The song is playing again right now and I'm crying remembering the moment and how great our God is.

I've really been struggling with a lot lately and too busy or preoccupied to slow down. A really great friend gave me great advice to pray for contentment with something I'm dealing with and through what's going on, to draw closer to God. It's such a beautiful thing - to know that He's always there, always waiting to listen. Even when no one else may be.

Let me not lead you astray by making you believe "The Summer Ends" is a Christian song. Not by any means. It's a song about a guy who meets a girl and the summer is coming to a close. They're at a crossroad and trying to decide what happens to them as the summer ends. The band, American Football, is no longer together, but their music is awesome. Daniel's younger brother, Jeremy, told me about them and several other great bands. Check them out.